RE: Dear Nursing Students.

To the nursing students I have interacted with, during the past week, Jesse, Emily, Hannah, and for the rest of you, who are interested in doing something different up north. I will do my best to prepare you mentally through this blog. I did not realize that people actually read this blog, and am extremely honoured and flattered that you take time from your busy lives to do so.

So, to begin with, everything you read in your International Health course, is true. Again, reading is not as believing as when you see it. The affects of the previous school system had is very much entrenched into the community. A lot of the issues are sometimes not even labeled as issues in the community. So, be prepared to put your judjement and self-righteousness away, because there won’t be any room for it. And if you’re not ready to do that, you won’t survive up here. 

People

One thing I really really appreciate is the people. Every encounter or interaction, I cherish it, savour it, and with it would go on. I don’t know why or where that feeling is coming from, but I just love every chance I get to interact with people. I don’t know what that ‘high’ feeling is, but its definintely there. I get excited just seeing people bustling around their busy schedules, I get even more excited when people actually take time to get to know me and I will reciprocate the favour. Just talking with some of the nursing students I see, I feel like I want them all the experience what I have in the past 3 months. The amount of perception, history, health, emotional well being I gained, has just been unreal. It was only the moment I talk about my experience with peers, that I really appreciate the experience I had.

Being up north, I have changed as a person. I almost want to say, completely. I pay more attention to persons, as opposed to, trying to please or entertain a group of people that I know nothing about at all. Personal interactions one on one are so much more valuable than grinding up a stranger’s ass at a dance floor. It really helps me love and appreciate friends so much more. Good friends are so hard to find, great friends who can level with you, are few and far in between. Katy is one of those people. Katy thought that I was just all about the ‘deep’ talking with people. I don’t know if it will be this way with me forever, but I am sure I will get moulded again into something else later down my career.

Because the world needs to know I can't sleep

I'm serious. I woke up to a dream that a leopard appeared in front of my porch because of my stupidity of putting a sack of meat outside. The leopard also managed to break into two locked doors by using its dexterous mouth. It progressed to ransacking the kitchen and stealing my rice cooker. Out of all things, my rice cooker.

Enough of that bs. I am up at 0500 and I blame the night shifts. Being a shift worker is not the ideal for many people. I may be a little young, but I cannot sleep around the clock like many do. Its a gift to do so. There are other medicines that others use to cope, but I refuse.

I do not know how else to express my frustration of not being able to sleep. It certainly is not fun, and I cannot imagine how insonmia snags some people. Insonmia sucks, like ketchup stains on your white sweater. Anyhow, back to killing vampires online.